So rarely 아주 드물게

간지러운 걸 싫어하는 편이지만, 위트있게 넘어가기를 선호하는 편이지만... 친구가 진지한 얘길하면 닥쳐!라고 말하는 게 더 불알친구답다고 생각하곤 하지만... 그래서 나도 그런 이야기 별로 하고 싶어하지 않지만...

아주 드물게...흐음... 

나도 가끔은 약하다는 것을 보여주고싶을 때가 있다. 아니, 사실 그러긴 싫다.

아주 드물다. 나는 이상한 놈은 아니다. 진짜로

모르겠다. 그냥 자기는 싫고, 딱히 할 것도 없고, 아무한테나 말 걸고 싶지는 않고, 하지만 내가 말하고싶은 그 사람한테 이 상태에서 말 걸어봐야 나는 이상한 놈이 될 뿐이라는 걸 알고있다.

So weired,,, 

왜 사람마음은 공평하지 않을까?

내가 이만큼 줘도 너는 왜 요만큼 주냐?

그래도 너한텐 계속 주고파

반대로

누군가는 나한테 엄청 주는데 왜 난 조금도 주기가 싫지?

그래서 아예 받기가 싫어져 미안해

나는 주고 너는 받기싫고 또 너는 다른사람한테 주고 그 사람은 또!또!또!

왜 그런거냐구 대체 왜 여러사람 힘들게 많드냐고

Today,
I tried to make hotteok for the first time.
Read several blog's recipe, make like that.
I haven't made any food until now. So I have no sense to cook something. Luckily, my coworker is good at cooking.
He is a chef and I am an assistant.
We will make hotteok with seeds. To make it, when dough goes into the oil, it should be expanded and then I should put seeds into it.
but not today....
Rome wasn't built in a day. We have to try more!! We discussed why we failed today. In our opinion, glutious rice flour and milk should put into the dougb. Tomorrow, we will meet and try again.
Haha...! Cheer up and success finally!!!

Business? Commerce? (장사)

I haven't done this kind of business at all.
It was too risky to start and even had no rooms for thinking about it in korea.
But now! the chance came to me! Honestly speaking, It may not be a chance.
Just an adventure!
I will recieve a booth from foreworkers.
Today, one of them told me that their avragage profit is only 300euro!
I can make a money over 1000euro, If I get another job... But money is not important thing. It seems so interesting!! Selling korean food to Irish!
How can I get an oppotunity like this??
I become an owner. It means that I must consider, discuss and decide everything related with my business with coworker.
I wish it will be successful, consequently, want to get an enough money!
Feel the achivement!! Feel the pride!!

youngjun's visiting

Youngjun.

He visited Dublin!! From Korea, via Belgium, France, England.

So marvelous, he and I are in the different world with Korea totally!

Since we have met at the mixed chorus team, there are many funny, interesting experiences and today is also another thing.

He will go to the military service 2months later. By all means, I wish good luck to him.

No happenings

Any kind of happenings! I need!
Nothing comes to me.
Indifference is the worst.
People in Dublin are indifferent to me.
I sent them my CV, no response.
I gave them my CV, the only word, call you later but only one phone call until now.
I had thought something interesting like adventure. It means not only good news but bad news.
Regretful, ashamed, upset, idiotic things.
I like those sorts of feelings. those are not boring.
What should I do to feel interesting?
Always I dream a dramatic life.

잡담(what is the right word?)

아쉽다 It's a shame.
~하려고하다 would have p.p
나는 네가 전화할 줄 알았어
I think you would have called me.(????)

후... 뭔가 말이 촥촥 안감기네 느낌이 빡빡 안와...ㅋㅋ 당연한거겠지만서도... 말을 할라다가도 느낌이 다르니까 입밖으로 잘 안나간다.
hoo... nuance is not this~! It is natural...but... I would have spoken...but that was not my intention... consequently I can't speak well.

Today, felt emptiness, loneliness and powerless.
Is this after-festival syndrom???
actually, I didn't hang out late. I came home before 7pm.
It was tooòo cold... but others might not feel cold. (다른 사람은 안추웠나보다...근데 might가 과거의 뜻이 아니라 그냥 추측인데 과거에 안추운걸 표현하려면 어떻게 써야하나...?)
they wear short sleeves these days.... I can't believe while I am seeing everyday...
strong people... Maximum temperature is only 10degree..

It is helpful to write or speak something in my mind for stress out, learning and memorizing. Not even seeing this again.

Relaxations

Relax...
Peaceful...
I took a rest all weekend.
I didn't do anything but watch films.
I watched british dramas and films to get used to the pronunciation and intonation of Irish.
There is the London in the films.
About time, Notting hill, Sherlock and Love actually.
Suddenly, I wanna go to the London.
Maybe 50euro, enough to go to the London!!
After getting a job... I will definitely go there.
London~!!

Am I doing my best now?

Finding a job

From 9:30am, I left home to distribute my CV.
Sunny, appropriate wind, felt good day~!
I started to walk and entered any store and restaurant,
Maybe half of store recieved the CV but the others even didn't recieve.
The coffee shop called Costa , there is no manager but the man who was working there said they will hire a part-timer soon. I will go again 1 or 2days later.
Many store want experience person... but I don't have experiences... angry... kk

The most angriest thing today!
One kebab store clerk said to me,
" You should come here tomorrow, my boss will ask several questions and maybe you will work here~!"
I was crazily happy~!! finally I get a job~!! wow!! It's not a big deal~!
But scarcely had I arrived home, got a phone call.
"Sorry, you don't need to come tomorrow, my boss won't be here for 10days. "
Honestly, I didn't understand her whole words, only understood I do not go the store tomorrow.
Can I work there 10days later??? I don't know.... I lost my energy... Hmmm...

Hin ma and Dada

Hin Ma is from HongKong.
He is studying in scotland as a exchange student. so outgoing, friendly guy~!
I stayed 18people dormiory, they didn't say anything each other.
though I first say something to them, they just answer and the end.
But Hin Ma was different. He has a positive and active attitude. I like those points of him!
He said, he always go on a trip on weekends.

 

I think, Is the reason we became friends easily maybe that we have same skin color?

I don't know exactly but there are something sticky between people who have same skin color.