I wanna sleep!! 잠이 안와....

On Sunday and Monday, it might be so lazy... I can't sleep even in 5am now.
What should I do? ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
On thursday!!! Please!!! I pray sincerely!!!
It might be perfect if it would be real.
Redbean iceflake(?) What can I call 팥빙수 in English?
Pot bingsu~!
I want a bingsu to be a popular menu among people.
It would be so successful just selling 10bowls a day. ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Really happy if it is. Also Hodduk should be sold more than 20pieces a day.
Hahahaha too much greed??

I can fix a punctured tire now!!

I have had a hard time more than a week due to my new bike.
it was punctured on the way to work. It costs 10euro to fix it at a bike shop.
10euro.... it is quite small money as usual but here is Ireland and I am making too low(?) money. So I don't wanna spend money to fix a tire. I spent more than 10euro... consequently... haha...
I asked my flatmate Ernesto how to fix it and bought a inner tube and a pump.
I thought it would be fine but of course it didn't. If that stuff would be fine at first , I would have not gotten too much stress.
I changed tube again and again and also put the tube into water to find a puncture.
Whenever I believe this time is a success! They laughed at me.... so stress!!!!!!
I was mad at a seller who I bought the bike. I am so sorry to him. that was caused from my ignorance... haa....
finally I found a tiny needle putting on the bike. That's why chaning a tube was no use...
I cleaned the needle and patched on the puncture with a band that we usually use when we are cut
Now.... I know most tips of changing a tube!
Hoooa.......
It so.......satisfy...?? or not....?
fine... good ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

Doing nothing

How amazing that doing nothing~!
I basically don't like staying inside for a quarter of a day however here, I like that~ so weird.
I watch movie, repeat lines, writing this diary and have a conversation with flatmates.
Maybe there are people inside home. If I am alone in the house, I couldn't stand staying inside.
Last saturday, Joseph has gone to his new house which he bought recently, which is so near my flat.
Actually I didn't like him... well... he is as old as my parents and tend to know something important about a life... hmm.... He had tried to teach me. It was so troublesome that I react one by one...
He had took too much space of our room. the room is been using with four people but he had seemed to contract a whole room by himself.
Anyway... he has gone~! and new friend come now. I forgot..., I had definitely remembered his name right ago. I'm getting old~!!!!!!!!! shit like a bullshit!!!
I once had a great brain~kkkkk now it might not... to be frank to you... obviously...
How to live on this wild world~! haha
How to study physics in graduate school~! How... so... just only sigh~

Today, too much sound like a dog, useless thoughts but not gloomy like a few days ago.
Ups and downs are really my area. kkkkkk

으....

아.......으.......이.......
자전거.....시발........ 장사.......오늘.....시발.......
팥빙수.......시발....어떻게 하....냐.......
ㅈㄱㅌ.....
조옷가아따아
45유로 주고 산 자전거 펑크수리 10유로, 기어수리 60유로라네.... 이 시발것.....
팥빙수 기계는 아일랜드에 없나..... 조가튼 시바
오늘은 기분이 매우 엿같다..... 호떡도 9개밖에 못팔았다..... 해결해야 할 일이 많다아아아아
하지만 이것은 내일 호떡을 많이 팔면 금새 좋아질 것임을 안다아아아
하지만 하지만 하지만 지금은 많이 화가난다

Just

Getting more and more bothersome to write this diary...

Actually, It might be neccessary. I think many thought was came and then gone. Now I can't remember at all.

Yesterday, I was dissapointed because I felt something went wrong... my collegue who sell hodduk with me was indifferent with improving our business so I annoyed, was lethargic and regreted a bit.

Of course these kind of feelings are changable depending on conditions of the day.

However , the important thing is that I can't be free against it.

I am always grip of the emotion strongly. 

Can't help thinking about that contiuosly.

The best policy at that time is only going to the bed. nothing else.

Rehearsal

From tomorrow, start to work at kimchi!
Still many things are not enough. should prepare more.
Today, at kimchi, the right place where I sell hodduk, I tried to make hodduk for final rehearsal.
Many realistic problems founded.
Making large amount of dough was the first time, there are no microwave to heat milk, no enough hot water to heat the dough during ripening. Besides, we had a hard time to make a menu. No artistic talent with us.... HAHA futhermore no nails, no hammer.
We need so many trivial things.

The devil is in the details.

I thought I had prepared a lot, there are mistakes without exception.
In a few weeks to come, should concentrate on Hodduk compeletely!

변화

변하다.
라는 말처럼 긍정과 부정의 느낌이 공존하는 단어는 없는듯 하다.
'어떻게' 변하느냐의 설명이 없는 '변하다' 의 느낌은 엄청 긍정적일 수도 또 엄청 부정적일 수도 있다.
마치 어떻게 보면 예쁜여인이 보이고 또 다르게 보면 마귀할멈이 보이는 그림처럼.

능동적이고 노력이 필요한 변화는 정말정말 어렵지만 긍정적이다. 이것은 극복에 가깝다.
수동적이고 환경에 순응하는 변화는 나도 모르게 이미 변해있고 기분 나쁘다. 설령 그 변화가 나의 삶을 편하게 해준다 하더라도 그러하다. 이것은 굴복에 가깝다.

동음이의어 같은 이 단어가 실은 같은 단어라는 게 그냥 갑자기 잠이 안오는 와중에 뜬금없이 신기하다.

Meeting the owner.

Finally, I and my coworker meet the owner of kimchi restaurant.
She was so kind. she has helped fore-workers who worked there before us, praised a lot, didn't interfere what they did. Just keep seeing and cheering. She even doesn't get a rent for place where we sell Hotteok.
I think she is considering us like sons. My flatmates might not understand when I told them this story.
'정' of Korea is like that.
I feel a sort of a responsibility. So thankful to her and fore-workers.
From next tuesday, my job is going to begin!
It would be exciting, fun but nervous a bit.
Because we are preparing well, It is going to be great!
HAHA~!